In time

In time I hope I can say this:

"I'm not where I want to be, but thank God I'm not where I used to be" - Joyce Meyer

My anthem

Stronger Woman - by Jewel
Youtube video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6EPyWfrqwXc

Lyrics:
Jewel - Stronger Woman Lyrics


I guess you could say I'm one of those girls
That's always been with one of those guys
You know the type
Like right now, he sleeps while I write
But it's better than crying
I'm worn out from trying
From loving a man who always makes it clear
I'm not welcome here
Just till he's horny and hungry
or needs something cleaned
And you know what I mean

But not tonight
'Cause come the morning light, oh
I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
The stronger woman in me

I'm going to be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no,
'Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman in me

Light bulbs buzz,
I get up
And head to my drawer
I wish there was more
I could say
Another fairytale fades to gray
I've lived on hope
Just like a child
Walking that mile
Faking that smile
All the while
Wishing my heart had wings

Well tonight, I'm going to be
The kind of woman I'd want my daughter to be, oh

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
There's a stronger woman in me
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
I won't lose myself again, never, no
'Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman

This is me, packing up my bags
And this is me, headed for the door
And this is me, the best you ever had
I'm going to love myself
More than anyone else
Believe in me even if someone cannot see
There's a stronger woman in me
I'm going to be my own best friend
Stay with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no
'Cause there's a stronger woman
A stronger woman
There's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman in me,

Trying to find that stronger woman in me

First post here!

I'm a Christian, 30-something woman with 4 great daughters who just found out her alcoholic, drug using husband of 14 years has cheated on me two nights ago.
I confronted him and told him it was over.
Now I have to find the stronger woman in me to get me and my children through this and out the other side in good shape.
It's difficult for me because I was totally financially dependent on him.
Now we'll have our water and electric turned off Tuesday morning and I'm getting evicted in 7 days. I just graduated from nursing school, so my financial future looks okay, if I can get through these tough days ahead.
I dont have any family in the state and they cant help financially anyhow.
I am all alone with my girls and have no idea what is going to happen to us.

BUT I have FAITH that we'll be okay somehow.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:10-12

So, anyhow, these will be my thoughts as I struggle through the land of the locusts, as I try and heal my shattered heart, my childrens hearts and find my way to higher ground as a newly single mom doing it all alone with no help.